Tuesday, May 16, 2006

and i found grace enough today

as the more astute of you may have noticed, most of my recent post titles are also song lyrics. fair enough, they are mostly quite obscure tracks.. but still. So, I decided, spur of the moment like, that instead of even contemplating doing more of my essay (MUST GET THAT DONE!!!!) I would talk for a while about some of my favourite songs. helped along the way by my trusty iPod.

In no particular order:

If I Fall by alice martineau. This is a beautiful song- one that was played at nicky's funeral and still reminds me of her, but in a good way.. "memories of a little girl, in my perfect world, don't cry..."

Walk Away by ben harper. a beautiful song that demonstrates how hard it is to walk away from those that ypu love, but it has to be done. one that i heard for the first time in glasgow, and has good connections with that time. its a lovely song. "too many people to love in my life, tell me, why do i worry about one?"

two songs: Girl in a Tower and Orion both written and performed by my friends el dog. both songs are lovely in their own ways. I have great respect for these guys and they write lovely songs. make me think of spending afternoons with bob just drinking tea and chatting. first time i met them, we had the randomest chats ever. it was great fun, and its been fun since then. they're so lovely.

If We Are The Body by casting crowns. the song is just a challenge to me in my faith. i need to remember that we are the body of christ (and i know a lot of you don't believe and i'm not trying to weird you out here, thi is just what i think right now) and if i am to be an effective member, i need to be reaching out and living my life in that way. its good, i've found folk in glasgow who do challenge me that way, and i'm growing.

Roundabout by the cellars. "well, this isn't easy and although i'm shaking" a lovely little band i saw in aikmans just before i left st andrews for glasgow. it kinda sums things up really. yeah, was a bit scary moving to glasgow, it was a "blend of youthful exuberance and ... its such a hopeful mix" but it was also one of the best things i've done. i just like this song.

End of an Anchor and Vindicated by dashboard confesional. beautiful songs. also As Lovers Go (Ron Fair Remix). I quite like this band all in all. "this is easy as lovers go, so don't complicated it... i said i gotta be honest i've been waiting for you all my life" feels like i've found some of the friends i've been waiing for in glasgow. thats not to say that io don't love and appreciate the friends i have in fife already, i really do, we've been through so much together and no-one can really replace that kind of amazing friendshps, but as i've grown up and into myself this past year, i've made some really interesting and strong friendships in glasgow. "i am vindictated, i am selfish, i am wrong i am right.. i am flawed, but i am cleaning up so well"

Foreverandever Etc... by the david crowder band. as well as the whole of Sunsets & Sushi (Experiments In Spectral Deconstruction) because it is a magnificent remix album. david crowder just has a way of expressing everything i want to say when i'm talking to God, but can't really find the words to say. its beautiful music.

hey! by david murray. what a corker. this is a track by a guy from my church, it features on the album, subject to change which was created by glasgow westend vineyard. such a gorgeous song... it just expresses his lost ness and loneliness and how he was pulled out of that "don't be alarmed, i'm ok, big G caught me just in time, said stop beautiful, don't you know you're a miracle of mine"

Be My Downfall by del amitri. what else can i really say? it characterises a certain period of my life and although i'm not proud of it it happened and it shaped me in some subtle ways. but other than those connotations, in its own right, this is a lovely song, as are all the rest of the del amitri songs.

Sing a New Song by emmaus. "yeah, the sun will shine again, the food will taste fine again the tears will be wiped from every face upon the earth"

Love Is Strange by everything but the girl. "love, love is strange, many people take it for a game, once you've had it you're in an awful fix, cos after you've had it, you never wanna quit" i can't say it better than that.

Portuguese Skies by jo mango. actually, the whole album is lovely. the songs speak for themselves really. this is slightly melancholy and that rings true.

nooks by king creosote. this reminds me of summer two years ago. study leave at the end of fifth year actually. not because i listened to it a lo at that point, but because emily gave it to me on a cd and i spent a lot of my time with her. so it reminds me of anstruther. i love the song in itself other than that anyway, it has many resonances...

i won't take up much more of your time, i promise...

Homesick by the kings of convenience. what an awesome band and a stonker of a track. it reminds me of certain nights out and certain people- just the lyrics of it. its a classic. (ps, thanks for introducing me to the album gordon!)

Less Than Love by the normals. its a very true song. shared it recently with a good friend of mine who was having a bit of a rough time re girls etc etc, one in particular was messing up his head, so we just sat in my room and drank tea and chatted and i made him listen to this song, i sent him the lyrics to it and it was good. its a good song.

Wedding Day by rosie thomas. this is an artist with the most beautiful songs ever. bittersweet and perfect.

Can I Stay Here Forever? by starfield. this song reminds me of myself in so many ways. there is a longing in it and i identify with so many bit of it. i've been in those situations, torn myself to pieces over some guy, been ridiculous about relationships, deserted God, gone my own way, but i have come back and this just captures that kind of search. its beautiful.

Drops Of Jupiter by train. what a cool song. i just love it. it makes me smile, it makes me cry. i love the whole album.

Love and also Run To by yvonne lyon. another artist from my church, she has a gorgeous voice and she uses it well. her lyrics are beautiful.
i'll leave it there.

love, love is a flood of torn tears and love will carry you home. love that loves for beauty's sake will soon as beauty die.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

frozen

i felt the urge to write a blog this evening, but i don't know what about. and i don't actually have time to do it properly, so i will come back to it after navs. and thats a promise.


*a week or three later*

er, well, i guess I didn't really keep that promise.
sorry.

was at home last weekend, saw alex after her op, she seems to be doing well. really wanted to take a trip to balmerino, but then couldn't, time etc contstraints.

anyway, i've finished all my essays for monday and after that i just have one more to do, which i will do very soon. so i'm very happy about all these things :)

off to meet nomy for coffee. hope you all have lovely productive days! :)

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Do not tell me what i can and cannot do when i rock

saw Jo Mango last night- she was rocking pretty hard! YAY! Go JO!
WE're getting a flat!!!!
the deposit goes down today!!!!!
i'm so EXCITED!

thats all.

Monday, March 27, 2006

an austrian went yodelling...

wo, its been a while since i updated this.
I do apologise.
Just been an open mic night at sleazys. it was really good, but there were several types of performers:

1 the guys you don't think on first appearances should be there, but then give really stonking performances (we had some amazing gospel songs from a fairly unusual candidate.)

2 the emo guys who give really heart searing performances and kinda fit into the background but have no banter and take themselves just a little too seriously sometimes

3 the extroverts who know they like the stage and give you a bit of banter as well as a great song

4 this one really cute slightly confused canadian guy, who was just soooo extraordinarily pleased about everything and who you just wanted to hug.

5 one or two performers who held the mic too close for the high notes and wrecked the enjoyment.

but without a mix of these people the nigt might well have bummed. its crazy, there are some real regulars at this night and they're all good and obviously well liked and then there are some newcomers, but theres a real buzz around the place, althoug everyone respects whoever is on stage and the room pretty much shuts up to listen to them. its ace. and they give out free marshmallows! i'm loving that it has to be said.

So anyway, i reckon i should head to bed. gotta be up and out for 8.15 tomorrow!

Thursday, March 02, 2006

empty hands

i dislike technology sometimes. iTunes doesn't want to play properly atm. blehhhh.
today was frustrating. we had a drama rehearsal scheduled for this morning, which, the hope was, everyone would turn up for and participate in. they didn't.

there were the five of us doing the workshop, then two others in the second drama group and about four other people. some people sat out (they were ill, it was ok) people came, but left to do other things.. aargh. it just wasn't fun. and the team project was draining and just blugh. then i relaxed for about twenty minutes after several phone calls to the school etc etc, checked my emails, loads of crappy ones, one quite nice one, which i actually forwarded (thats unusual btw. i don't particularly like forwards or send them often, but i'll make exceptions.) before i ran off to tea, ate my dinner in five minutes flat, went to a rather dull and pointless course comittee meeting where none of my lecturers attended (they're all in spain or something) so it was pointless pointless pointless.

and i've just been sitting around my room now. not really doing much. i should start on my essay's. think i'll start them after this.

yesterday was fun though. i went into town, spent too much money, went to the drama group at maryhill, which was really really funny, met nomy for coffee, ate some rather nice stew, went back into town, met bob, walked to his flat, had a cup of tea and went home. fell asleep. it was nice.

hope you're all doing well.

i'd recommend reading a million little pieces by james frey.

have fun.

ps i'm looking forward to the weekend when folk are coming up to glasgow.. woooooo:)

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

We're the pirates who don't do anything

Pete is now bald. He raised £3000 for charity (half to the church windows fund, the other half to the Yorkhill Schiehallian Childrens Cancer ward) in one big haircutting session. A pretty expensive haircut to be honest...

I have a cold.

I went to bobs after work on saturday night abd sat around his kitchen table drinking tea and smoothies and talking, mostly to Johanna and Matt, who ar actually hilarious. I was in stitches. And my tummy hurt from too much laughing by the end of the night. All in all, it was a good night.

Friday night, me and my navs girls did some baking and then stood outside the QMU from 1am to 3am giving out free coffee and tea and baked goods. it was really good fun. We got some totally random conversations, but it was all good.

So today I'm cooking for the girls. Well, Nicky and I are.

Have you ever heard the same kind of thing several times from several sources? recently, I've heard lots of sermons, discussions and notices about serving. Especially service to the poor or needy. It's not smething I would have automatically have thought of in connection with me, but it sometimes feels like God is pushing me that way.

I got up an hour before I had to this morning because I wanted to take photos for class. and I've done that now, but that only took like five minutes.. so I've been bumming around my room with nothing to do for ages.

I think I'm going to leave now. I think I'm going to lunch with Jo next sunday. should be good.

Good night.